A Fresh Start in August
Well, It's been awhile friends.
I have realized that running a buisness is hard work and can leave one feeling drained, inadequate, not wanted...and honestly, can just suck the joy out of what you love doing most.
All that to say, I am here humbly saying I don't have this all figured out. Even if by the grace of God I propel forward with huge momentum and a million clients line up for me, I may only continue to putter along and feel a bit defeated. But there is much growth and joy that can be found in the slow and steady.
Also, during this time off I have truly realized just how important it is for one to rest and rest well. My health took a turn for the worst this summer and I had to really take a step back and evaluate how I have been taking care of myself. It is WAY easier to not ask for help, or ignore pains that I know will take time and effort to work though. But, when I took a step forward towards healing, I found that when I took care of my body my spirit and creative soul began to be healed as well. I forget just how connected one part of myself is to another. Through this I have begun to live more present and mindful of what I eat, who I spend my time with, and just what my goals are for my life.
I'm not one for taking compliments...but through some hard work I have realized I didn't take them due to feeling like I had to live up to those compliments at all costs. I had to be PERFECT. The prettiest, the thinest, the smartest, the most talented....but that began to be EXHAUSTING. I have gotten better at taking compliments with nothing attached except gratitude, but man, it is still hard.
This brings me to a letter from a dear dear friend. She send this awhile ago and I cannot explain what it did for my heart. I was allowing my perfection addiction to overtake my photography endeavors. "I have to edit this way", "That photographer does this better", etc. But through this letter I was able to see a small amount of my worth. My friend loves me and my work and my heart. What more is needed but for me to simply "Keep moving forward!"
So, from the summer of healing my body and creative drive, I have some ideas. I am not doing them all at once but am going to be more consistent and more excited. More open and more driven. I am going to bring more to the table because I am 'more'. I have worked hard to reach for my goals and realize I am not perfect and don't have to have all of my s*** together! I am a photographer who is genuine and real and honest. I am Angelyn of Angelyn Moura Photography.
Hope you come along for the ride! I will update my blog with some of my past sessions as well as new...not every week, but maybe every now and then. Stay tuned to my social media for updates, giveaways, model calls, and more!
Cheers to Life!